When I vaguely ran into the bathroom, my sister,
obsessed with the fact that I wouldn’t come out,
kept twisting the doorknob. When she realized it was locked,
she used scissors to open and unlock the door.
Unbelievably, after resorting to unreasonable violence,
she said to me, “What are you doing?” lol.
At that moment, for some reason, I thought it was like a scene where a hero comes to the rescue.
Isn’t that weird? I didn’t feel scared at all.

Recently,I've been feeling very sleepy.
I don't know the cause, but maybe it's because of medicication.
Today, I asked my friend a question and ended up faling asleep
right after. Even after wake up, I was overwhelmed by
strong drowsiness, but later, after eating, I experienced
stomach pain multiple times.

1/11

Don't you think that having a body makes everything more troublesome? Like having to eat or go for treatment. There are good aspects, but I can only think of the bad ones.

1/16

When I look at social media, I feel overwhelmed by people’s extreme jealousy and their raw, unfiltered words, as if my heart is about to be crushed. Sometimes, I come across people whose lives have been ruined, news of someone’s passing, or even livestreams of people jumping to their deaths. Social media is like the stars. But why is it that people’s art and illustrations can be so soothing?

1/22

the feeling of emptiness never stop, and I know only one way to stop it.

1/26

When I started taking the medicine, I found myself falling asleep again before I knew it. When I don’t take it, I’m not sleepy at all at night. I wonder if brotizolam and Concerta just don’t go well together. Anyway, I was able to order the book I wanted to buy. I’m happy because last time, I added it to the cart but couldn’t complete the purchase.

1/27

I've been taking digestive medicine, but I've been having diarrhea for a while now. It's really troublesome.

2/1